I wrote a little bit about Mondays last week so I will not do that today. I am sure that I will come back to talk about them again in the future because they just seem to be so significant in this whole weight release process.
Today, I want to talk about an Optical Illusion. First of all, I want to define the word illusion for you. An illusion is a deceptive appearance or impression, a false idea or belief. And I will be very transparent with you, as soon as I wrote that definition, knowing the direction I am going with this blog post, my eyes welled up with tears. For you see, the item of deception that I and so many women have worn for way too many years to count is the GIRDLE. YES, I said it. GIRDLE. And whether we wear a minimum or medium or maximum support girdle, it matters not. Whether we wear the shirt girdle or the thigh girdle or the panty girdle or the all over girdle, we are all deceiving ourselves and giving a false impression to others. Forget the goals of the girdle to minimize the jiggle or create smooth lines, the girdle is an item of deception until one day, you take a second look, and you painfully realize that you are only deceiving yourself. Yep! That happened to me. I looked at a picture one day that had been taken while I was wearing one of those all over maximum support girdles and all of a sudden a lightbulb went off in my head that the optical illusion I was trying to create did not work. My heart was broken. For now I knew the truth that the false self I attempted to project by hankering down on my body's rolls and enduring hours of discomfort for people who still saw me as the thick sister that I am, did not work. The girdle had deceived me and exposed me at the same time.
Friends, I remember some years ago now, when I lost weight and I stopped wearing girdles. Oh, the Freedom! I vaguely remember the confidence I had to wear whatever I wanted to wear without the undergarment that had suppressed me under a countless number of outfits. I remember when I could just avoid the girdle strategy as an optical illusion to the eyes of others by creating a false silhouette and I was so proud. But, my friends, that was several years ago now and I am back to the girdles. Honestly, as I am on this journey of weight release, forget the numbers on the scale! I want to get to the place where I can go girdle-less! LOL! I know that sounds crazy but I want to stop perpetrating a false idea or belief about my body that I realized a long time ago is not working anyway. I guess it is supposedly polite to not let your rolls hang out, to conform to the "Standard" of a flat stomach and smooth upper back. I honestly was really shocked to find out that my skinny friends have rolls too and we are all forcing ourselves to embrace this false idea of our bodies so that we might somehow impress people who do not care because they do not know you or like you or they love you for you. If you have not experienced this or come to grips with this truth, I am forewarning you so that you will not have a rude awakening only to one day look at a photograph or in a full length mirror to have your ego crushingly illuminated to see clearly that your optical illusion is no illusion at all. I experienced that and it does not feel good.
Friends, I want to go girdle-less and avoid this underlying sense of body shaming that we have invested hundreds of dollars into. I want to go girdle-less and stop attempting to create these optical illusions of "inches off " without eating right or going to the gym. I want to go girdle-less and let it all hang out!
I want to go girdle-less... that is my goal . And one day, after doing the work, I will get there again because there really is nothing like being completely FREE!
GOD LOVES YOU and I DO TOO!!!
Blessings, Glory, and Sunshine!!!